When a boy tells you he loves you, doubt him. Narrow your eyes and look at him with suspicion. Stop talking to him for three days and stop answering his texts. See if he grows tired of you. Or bored. If you find him making a phone out of tin cans and string, that means he’s trying.

On your first date, wear a lace bra and see-through shirt and see if he treats you like a body instead of a person. See if he can even look you in the eyes. See if he talks more than he listens.

Take him to a bar and watch what he does when he thinks you aren’t looking. See if his eyes undress every saint and sinner in the room.

See how patient he is. Use your lips and your hips and your hands. Bring him within an inch of lust and take it away. See how he responds.

When a boy tells you he loves you, ask him how much. If he tells you in texts of size 12-point font, ask him to tell you again in person because you’ll want to remember this moment. You’ll want to know how his voice falters and shakes, how he fumbles for words. You’ll want to remember the exact rhythm of his heaving chest when he tries to explain that pieces of you have made a home in his lungs.

And so if he arrives at your door, and throws the words in your face, deadpan, you’ll know that not even God could bring them back to life.

"When a Boy Tells You He Loves You" (via lamegrownup)

(Source: typewriterdaily, via yesbloodismyink)

m0rbidity:

this took me a rly long time but yeah here ya go c: hope this is helpful
art references
paint online
paint tool sai brushes
mypaint (its free & kinda like photoshop)
firealpca (its free & a mix between sai and photoshop)
photoshop (for free n other stuff)
textures
more textures
brushes 
more brushes
things to draw
more things to draw
anatomy ref
another rly good anatomy ref
how to draw anything??
how to draw mouths
color scheme tools
face contouring/highlighting
become a better artist 
increase your creativity
tutorial masterpost
another tutorial masterpost
paint tool sai masterpost
drawing ref masterpost
converters 
youtube to mp3 converter
8tracks playlist downloader
download youtube videos
convert anything to anything
food
brownie in a mug recipe
cookie in a mug recipe
mac n cheese in a mug
study snacks
40 on-the-go recipes
salad recipes
harry potter food recipes
s’mores pie
nutella hot chocolate
starbucks secret menu
vegan cookbook masterpost
mug snacks
personal help
sex ed you probably never learned
transgender resources
more transgender resources
self harm alternatives
take your mind off it
video guide on how to escape rape
getting gender neutral pronouns on facebook
makeup/hair/beauty things
winged eyeliner tutorial
makeup tips masterpost
newspaper nail tutorial
filling in eyebrows
space buns
trick to liquid eyeliner
different ways to braid your hair
clothing ref
school n studying
teaches everything??
HUGE studying masterpost
pull an all-nighter and still do well on an exam
write an essay
finals survival guide
learning website
make flashcards
tutoring website
essay writing help
essay writing help
study like a college kid
free microsoft word
pretend to type an essay
educational links
writing references masterpost
survive college
solves any math problem (2)
earn a cute kitten picture after writing
get motivated to study
productive study breaks
microsoft word equivalent
how to Google
Scholarpedia (its like wikipedia but with reliable sources)
when should I go to bed?
study to these sounds
writing
200 words that describe light
inspiration
character flaws
writers block?
death scenes
how to keep a journal
read some slam poetry
huge writing masterpost 
how to reveal character
help with writer’s block
find out which author you write like
write interactive books  (kind of like choose your own adventure)
good brainstorming/ organizing tool
zen writing tool
writing masterpost
theme/tumblr things
tile backgrounds
redux edit masterpost
hq background pics
mass tag replacer
dropdown link code
general tumblr tips
more tumblr tips
unicode symbol map
how to add favicons
basic HTML formatting guide
tutorial blog
theme coding tutorials
billy audio player
another audio player
emojicons
make your own theme
codes masterpost
movies and tv shows
list of disney/pixar/marvel movies
studio ghibli movies
sad movies
halloween movies
comedy movies
christmas movies
once upon a time episodes
all american horror story seasons
all supernatural seasons
master list of other tv shows
girl-havoced:

I believe in free education, one that’s available to everyone; no matter their race, gender, age, wealth, etc… This masterpost was created for every knowledge hungry individual out there. I hope it will serve you well. Enjoy!
FREE ONLINE COURSES (here are listed websites that provide huge variety of courses)
Alison 
Coursera
FutureLearn
open2study
Khan Academy
edX
P2P U
Academic Earth
iversity
Stanford Online
MIT Open Courseware
Open Yale Courses
BBC Learning
OpenLearn
Carnegie Mellon University OLI
University of Reddit
Saylor
IDEAS, INSPIRATION & NEWS (websites which deliver educational content meant to entertain you and stimulate your brain)
TED
FORA
Big Think  
99u
BBC Future
Seriously Amazing
How Stuff Works
Discovery News
National Geographic
Science News
Popular Science
IFLScience
YouTube Edu
DIY & HOW-TO’S (Don’t know how to do that? Want to learn how to do it yourself? Here are some great websites.)
wikiHow
Wonder How To
instructables
eHow
Howcast
MAKE
Do it yourself
FREE TEXTBOOKS & E-BOOKS
OpenStax CNX
Open Textbooks
Bookboon
Textbook Revolution
E-books Directory
FullBooks
Books Should Be Free
Classic Reader
Read Print
Project Gutenberg
AudioBooks For Free
LibriVox
Poem Hunter
Bartleby
MIT Classics
Many Books
Open Textbooks BCcampus
Open Textbook Library
WikiBooks
SCIENTIFIC ARTICLES & JOURNALS
Directory of Open Access Journals
Scitable
PLOS
Wiley Open Access
Springer Open
Oxford Open
Elsevier Open Access
ArXiv
Open Access Library
LEARN:
1. LANGUAGES
Duolingo
BBC Languages
Learn A Language
101languages
Memrise
Livemocha
Foreign Services Institute
My Languages
Surface Languages
Lingualia
OmniGlot
OpenCulture’s Language links
2. COMPUTER SCIENCE & PROGRAMMING
Codecademy
Programmr
GA Dash
CodeHS
w3schools
Code Avengers
Codelearn
The Code Player
Code School
Code.org
Programming Motherf*?$%#
Bento
Bucky’s room
WiBit
Learn Code the Hard Way
Mozilla Developer Network
Microsoft Virtual Academy
3. YOGA & MEDITATION
Learning Yoga
Learn Meditation
Yome
Free Meditation
Online Meditation
Do Yoga With Me
Yoga Learning Center
4. PHOTOGRAPHY & FILMMAKING
Exposure Guide
The Bastards Book of Photography
Cambridge in Color
Best Photo Lessons
Photography Course
Production Now
nyvs
Learn About Film
Film School Online
5. DRAWING & PAINTING
Enliighten
Ctrl+Paint
ArtGraphica
Google Cultural Institute
Drawspace
DragoArt
WetCanvas
6. INSTRUMENTS & MUSIC THEORY
Music Theory
Teoria
Music Theory Videos
Furmanczyk Academy of Music
Dave Conservatoire
Petrucci Music Library
Justin Guitar
Guitar Lessons
Piano Lessons
Zebra Keys
Play Bass Now
7. OTHER UNCATEGORIZED SKILLS
Investopedia
The Chess Website
Chesscademy
Chess.com
Spreeder
ReadSpeeder
First Aid for Free
First Aid Web
Wolfram Demonstrations Project
Please feel free to add more learning focused websites. 
*There are a lot more learning websites out there, but I picked the ones that are, as far as I’m aware, completely free and in my opinion the best/ more useful.
You are so hard on yourself sometimes. It’s okay to feel something that doesn’t hurt once in a while. Robyn Carr (via khadlja)

Though I’m lonely and single, I can’t stop writing love poems. I talk to my English professor about this and he says, Wait, you’re writing? Yes, I say. So what’s the problem, he asks as he takes a sip of his coffee. I keep writing about emotions that aren’t relevant to me, I explain again. Oh, and? And it’s making me feel lonely, I say. Ah, loneliness. He pauses to scratch his beard. You shouldn’t feel lonely as long as you’re writing. The only friend a writer needs is their work. It can’t be that simple, I whisper. Of course it’s that simple, he smiles, proud of himself for believing he has comforted me. I thank him and leave his office.

I take his advice and spend the next three months holed up in my room, scribbling furiously. I turn down my friends’ invitations and tell my family I’m too sick to join them for dinner. I take my meals by my computer, where a manuscript is half-typed, waiting to be completed.

I write a story about a girl who’s missing her right hand. She goes through life too ashamed of her own deformity to introduce herself to strangers. I write about a family that forgets their dog on a camping trip. I write about a son who swallows a mirror in an attempt to understand his insides. It ends with him spitting out bloody shards of glass. I write about the hole in my stomach I keep swallowing ink to fill and wake up in the middle of the night spewing words.

I talk to my mother about this. She is vacuuming and has to turn off the machine each time I say something. “Have you tried writing relatable characters?” she asks. Yes, I say. Yes, I have tried. She suggests I quit trying so hard. She says loneliness is a state of mind. I ask her how you move out of that state. She says, Aw, honey, let me finish this floor, okay?

I go to my best friend. She asks me if I’m depressed. I tell her, no, I don’t think so. How can I tell? She says she hasn’t seen me in months. I apologize and tell her I’ve been focusing on my work. She says, what work? You just said you can’t write anything good. I tell her she’s right. She tells me she’s afraid of losing me, that I look thinner and like I haven’t been getting enough sleep. We make plans to go out to dinner the next week.

I stop writing. I tell myself that it’s made me a bad friend, a bad daughter, a bad girlfriend. I remember what my ex said before he broke up with me: You’re only lonely because you want to be.

I spend weeks with a smile plastered on my face and my fingers twitching whenever they see a pen. It is not easy to wean myself off of words. I have to avoid libraries, bookstores, and Literature classes. One day I see my old English teacher and he asks how my writing’s doing. I tell him I’ve given it up. He says, well that’s not what I wanted to inspire. Don’t you miss it? Yeah, I say. I do. But I don’t think it misses me.

In a museum gift shop, an old man sees me fondling the journals. Do you like to write?, he asks. I hesitate before replying, I used to, but I stopped. Why?, he demands. Everything I wrote was boring, I say. Who told you that? He looks at me curiously, ready to punch whoever put me down. No one really. I just felt like it was. He hands me a journal and says, You shouldn’t be so hard on yourself.

I sit in bed and ask myself why a person would want to be lonely. I pour over the work of my favorite authors, searching for an answer. They tell me that loneliness is an art. They tell me being lonely allows you to feel more. They tell me, we understand, we were lonely too.

Late at night, I find myself hunched over my desk, shaking out sonnets. I write prose. I write poems. I write silly rhymes and love letters and long odes. I write until the sun rises and I pass out on piles of paper, my mouth hanging open. The next day I read it all and three fourths of it is about love. I don’t care. I show my mom and she says, that’s great. I’m glad you’re doing what you love again.

I realize the words don’t mind if I’m lonely. They’re not demanding a reason, they’re helping me find one. And I don’t need to be in love to write about it. I just need to write.

Lessons Writing Taught Me About Love and Loneliness | Lora Mathis (via de-mitasse)

(Source: lora-mathis, via de-mitasse)

And kid, you’ve got to love yourself. You’ve got wake up at four in the morning, brew black coffee, and stare at the birds drowning in the darkness of the dawn. You’ve got to sit next to the man at the train station who’s reading your favorite book and start a conversation. You’ve got to come home after a bad day and burn your skin from a shower. Then you’ve got to wash all your sheets until they smell of lemon detergent you bought for four dollars at the local grocery store. You’ve got to stop taking everything so goddam personally. You are not the moon kissing the black sky. You’ve got to compliment someones crooked brows at an art fair and tell them that their eyes remind you of green swimming pools in mid July. You’ve got to stop letting yourself get upset about things that won’t matter in two years. Sleep in on Saturday mornings and wake yourself up early on Sunday. You’ve got to stop worrying about what you’re going to tell her when she finds out. You’ve got to stop over thinking why he stopped caring about you over six months ago. You’ve got to stop asking everyone for their opinions. Fuck it. Love yourself, kiddo. You’ve got to love yourself.

Unknown (via crystallized-teardrops)

this will always be my most favorite post on tumblr

(via thecolorofrain)

(Source: irynka, via weirdjabi)

You can talk with someone for years, everyday, and still, it won’t mean as much as what you can have when you sit in front of someone, not saying a word, yet you feel that person with your heart, you feel like you have known the person for forever…. connections are made with the heart, not the tongue. C. JoyBell C. (via khadlja)

(Source: observando, via khadlja)

The saddest part isn’t what you did to me but what I would have done for you. D.V.

(Source: darkflightlessbutterfly, via khadlja)

gardenhoseenema:

Jenny Holzer“Marquees” installation, 1993
germanottaaa:

im bored of life and everything so i decided to make a post of everything. like a ref list of workouts, studying help, writing, drawing… etc! this will literally take me hours i s2g
STUDYING;
a way to high marks and be on tumblr the same time.
science translated to english :)
collection of studying mixes
selfcontrol and various pomodoro method site blockers are extremely helpful when you know you need to shut down your access to distracting websites
simplynoise, mynoise, rainymood, coffitivity, soundrown, simplyrain,naturesoundplayer, naturesoundsforme are good background voices 
a site that would explain to you literally anything
organizing your time, studying strategies.. etc
study skills
how to google
learning how to revise
improving your revision skills
learn geography 
shop books online
alt. to wikipedia
final exams guide
get motivated to study
tips for a productive study break
when should I go to bed?
microsoft word equivalent
free online books
more free books
can’t do your homework?
“no homework” excuses
how to get unblocked internet in school (chrome only)
words to make you seem more intelligent
emotions vocabulary  
WRITING;
how to write a kickass essay
alternatives to “said”
alternatives to “whispered”
tip of my tongue
Read any book (apparently)
writing fantasy stories
character flaws
writers block (1) (2)
writing a death scene
bio help
degrees of emotions
writing ref
music to help you write
ART; 
painting tutorial
colour palette (1) (2) (3) (4) (5) (6)
drawing clothe folding
avoiding drawing the same face
draw ice
anatomy help
free drawing program (1) (2)
sai brushes (1) (2) (3) (4) (5) (6) (7) (8)
draw hair
drawing ref
dont know what to draw?
draw 3D room tut
drawing eyes
lip tutorial
how to draw jeans
how to draw arms
expression tutorial
drawing hair and fur
drawing cats
pose reference blog [its actually a blog full of references i-]
download photoshop
paint blood
color blender
draw hands
hands 2
photoshop help (1) (2) (3) (4) (5)
remove backgrounds from images online
clouds
brush setting ref (SAI)
kissing ref 
how to draw curls
realistic woman body ref
draw knees
draw feet
shadow help
male body
lips ref
contouring and highlighting
draw wings
change images using blur (PS)
gray
hat ref
glowing stuff
pastel colors
draw grass
eyeliner ref
MAKEUP;
eyeliner
punk rock makeup
disney eye makeup
coverup tattooes
how to apply blush
6 makeup tips
ombre eyeliner
what makeup complements my complexion?
what makeup suits you?
lipstick tricks
how to do your makeup with a spoon
HAIR;
messy bun tutorial
different ways to braid
three-braid updo
waterfall braid
how to fishtail
romantic curls
braid + bun updo
how to do pastel hair
8 ways to wear a bow
4-strand braid
braided bun
braided headband
dutch braid crown
pin curls!
how to contour
everyday makeup routine
lipstick using crayons
eyeliner ref wow
filling in eyebrows
banana facial mask (moisturizes)
strawberry facial mask (acne prone skin)
avocado facial mask (dry skin)
yogurt facial mask (sensitive skin)
list of oils to add to your face masks
already made masterpost :*
FOOD;
hot chocolate using nutella -gasp-
4 different smoothies
chocolate chip cookies
tastiest starbucks drinks
best grilled cheese
winter sore throat tea
best chocolate cake
apple pies (mini aw-)
extra fancy garlic bread
french bread pizza
pIE
muffin in a mug
how to make nutella fudge
lavender lemonade wow
15 pound homemade snickers bar
make candy crystal meth
Macaroni and cheese in a mug
cheap & healthy snacks
Every Starbucks drink and pasty
deliciousfood
vegans
MOVIES/TV-SHOWS;
tv shows masterpost hola
movie masterpost
scary movies
movies to watch when you’re sad
when to pee during a movie
jennifer lawrence movies master list
glee season 1,2,3,4 + 5
ja’mie private school girl
adventure time master list
supernatural
doctor who
pirates of the carriben series
walking dead season 1,2,3 + 4
american horror story season 1 + 2
a list of over 900 movies with links
MUSIC/AUDIO; 
white noise
coffee shop
all the music you’ve reblogged
stay happy
concentrate
listen to the rain
GET HYPED
fireplace
play piano
FREE BOOKS;
textbooknova
reddit
bookboon
textbookrevolution
math textbooks
ebookee
freebookspot
free-ebooks
getfreeebooks
bookfinder
oerconsortium
gutenberg project
ebook3000
readanybook
free audio books
masterpost of books wow
BORED?;
answer trivia questions and give people rice
make a a giant squid pillow!
make your own acapella band 
live ocean
pokemon secret base
read creepy wikipedia articles
read more creepy wikipedia articles 
disney lies/ urban legends (probs not real like-)
this will take you to a cool place
your online garden
sand art online
wow just open it omg
cool websites for wasting time (1, 2, 3 )
how to help someone who is suicidal
make a blanket nest
click daily to give free food to an animal shelter
2500 Japanese emoticons 
homemade wax
gift ideas for cat lovers
moss graffiti
make a flower crown
night vale monopoly
learn how to survive a zombie apocalypse
how to play ‘sherlock’
supernatural workout
learn a new language!
learn london slang
take personality tests
watch this video
make gifs
see what its like to live on minimum wage
watch great vines
make glitter out of salt
make dip-dyed shoes
learn to read korean in 15 minutes
how to make origami
color matching game
fun sites masterpost
how to be an adult
check your postlimit
make a wand
find out if a website is safe
make a font from your handwriting
SELF-HELP;
materpost
emergency compliment
cute yahoo answers
calming manatee
calming gif
coping skills and distractions
draw a stickman
daily puppy
guided relaxation 
the thoughts room
go to a quiet place 
cut something instead of yourself 
let it out 
self injury recovery masterpost 
free hugs 
coping skills & distractions 
make a comfort box
CLOTHING;
1000+ reference
BACKGROUNDS;
nature/scenery
literally everything
a little from everything
tile/repeating/pattern background
gradient
halloween
PIXELS;
cool pixel blogs (1) (2) (3) (4) (5)
christmas
halloween
HTML;
make a theme tutorial
Even if everything hadn’t happened the way it did, that child part of me would still have disappeared. Imperceptibly over time. I just got too old, too fast. All at once. Katja Millay, The Sea of Tranquility (via khadlja)
love has never been about physical appearance that’s why some people fall in love with people who live half way across the world. Love is and has always been two souls connecting and when your souls connect all of a sudden his eyes are brighter than the stars and her smile resembles the crescent of the moon. philosophy. (via khadlja)

(Source: thelitgeek, via khadlja)